Saturday, April 26th, 2025. 4:22 AM.
Resurrection Sunday
Pleasant Valley Sunday | The Monkees | Lyrics ☾☀
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Felicia
Hi Felicia . . .
I was in bed a little while ago . . .
And thoughts of loving you were coming to heart and mind and soul and spirit and body, love . . .
39 words so far . . .
There are 39 books in The Hebrew Scriptures, love . . .
39 Books of Holy Scriptures
39 Books of God’s Word
The Living Word of God
Almighty God’s Word
Felicia, if you want me . . .
If you want me to write more of this to you . . .
Please write back to me . . .
Please let me know, love – that you welcome me — and my love for you — to be sent to you by this confiding with you, Felicia, of my loving thoughts of us in love making, love.
I really haven’t written any more than this, so far.
151 words
I was born in 1951, love.
But it isn’t 1951 anymore love . . .
Since I’m not in bed now imagining us being there together . . .
It isn’t easy for me to recall my sexting/imaginings of you and me confiding to you my thoughts of love and desire for you, Felicia –
And your beautiful body that you sent me pictures of, love . . .
Hmmm . . .
“Pictures of Love”
That Phrase Has a Nice Sound to It, love.
I recall now that I was wanting to kiss your lips, Felicia – if you gave me permission –
If you let me know you wanted my kissing of your lips, love . . .
And was imagining you telling me how to kiss your mouth love.
Felicia: “Mark, part your lips a little to open your mouth as you kiss my lips.”
Felicia: “Perhaps, Mark, I will feel pleased enough by your lips touching mine that my own mouth will naturally open also for you to touch my white teeth with the tip of your tongue, love – as desire awakens in my own body, Mark, for your loving me. You may slide your tongue across my white teeth Mark left to right; and perhaps even lower your tongue and slide the tip of your tongue again left-to-right across my lower white teeth; and always have the memory, Mark, of having been permitted by me to touch my teeth and to press your lips upon my own mouth in this beginning of loving-making with me – and of me loving you, Mark — of us loving each other — in the beginning of love-making on This Resurrection Sunday of April 20th, 2025.”
384 words
Thursday, April 24, 2025
A few days ago, I blocked Felicia’s email address again – because she isn’t replying to my emails again. And it’s very sad and lowly to be waiting for her emails that don’t come. And she has in the recent past told me to find another woman. And then, I recalled a Scripture: “Hope deferred makes the heart sick.” Maybe that is why I have several times blocked her email address; maybe this waiting for emails that don’t arrive is making my heart sick. And she has said worse things to me – such as “Fuck off.” She also sent very explicit pictures to me. And she told me to find another woman.
So, a few days ago, I saw a picture of a famous actress on Facebook; and all I had to do was click below her picture to send her a FB Friend request. I did it. It was as easy as “Pressing the Presto Button” at a carnival; and waiting and hoping that the door would open. And a few days later, she accepted my Friend request. So, I began writing to her on Facebook. And I had a lot to write. And she replied, but only once did she reply. Well, she also sent a yellow hand sign – a Hi sign. So, I stopped writing to her – after writing very much to her. I did not block her, though. I went to Wikipedia and read a long biographical article about her. It was very interesting; and I felt emotional while reading it. Her birthday is 5 days after my birthday – but she’s 11 years younger than me. And she studied Literature in college. Literature is a favorite subject of mine. And also this surprised me: her actual name — which is different than her professional name — rhymes with Felicia – although it isn’t Felicia. And she was a valedictorian of her class – and she graduated in 1980 – just as I met a valedictorian who graduated from high school in 1980; and corresponded with her for more than two years – between 1980 and approximately 1982.
I would like to make clear here that I don’t know for certain that the professional actress I met recently on Facebook and Facebook Messenger is really that actress. I’m aware that it is possible that someone is only pretending to be that famous actress; and could be using her name and her picture to deceive.
Just a few minutes ago, I was in bed trying to — hoping to — fall asleep – just because I am so tired and also feeling the abdominal pain I often feel. I take one Tylenol for it; and it helps. This pain I feel sometimes gets me wondering if it is some kind of labor pain; but a spiritual kind of labor – giving berth rather than birth – in the harbor of my heart — to something or someone not natural but spiritual. I’m thinking of what Jesus said to Nicodemus in John 3 about being born again. I’d like to try to recall an imagining I was having in bed as I was waiting to fall asleep. It was a love-kind of imagining.
I don’t know if I can recall the imagining now. It was about kissing her and speaking with her. And I’m not even sure now if this imagining was about Felicia and me or the actress I friended a few days ago on FB. I believe it was about Felicia – not the actress.
Mark: ____ I can’t recall how the imagining began. I can’t repeat the dialogue we had. I remember I wanted to kiss her lips; and she took my hand and placed it on her bosom. And then I kissed her lips. Then we talked about how it felt. She asked me how I felt kissing her; and I asked her how it felt to have my hand on her bosom. It felt very good to me to kiss her. And then we began talking about being married. And I brought up the subject that I was much older than she; and I wondered how she felt about that. She said some women find older men very attractive. And I said I find younger women very attractive. And then, I felt that I should get out of bed and write about this imagining; so, I did so. And I felt very tired as I walked out of the bedroom – which is how I always feel now when I get out of bed. I wish I could recall the exact dialogue we had. It was very special and meaningful. But, I cannot recall it now. I can’t exactly remember it.
Friday, April 25, 2025
Yesterday, I deleted the FB Messenger chat I had written to the professional actress. She only wrote one sentence to me; although I had written many sentences to her. And then I unfriended her, too. It was very distracting and distressing to see her name in my FB contacts list. Her name isn’t there anymore; and yet, I still look for her name there every time I log on to Facebook.
Some things I was thinking of writing to the actress were as follows. I went to Wikipedia to read about her a few days ago. I also went to YouTube and watched a scene from a movie she was in – a movie I saw many years ago. The scene was of her going to see a man in prison. Her walk in the cavernous and dimly-lit darkness of the hallway alone in the prison reminded me of Charles Dickens’ literature. Then I wondered: “What is it about this scene that reminds me of Charles Dickens’ literature ?” And then I recalled his famous novel: “A Tale of Two Cities.” In that novel – which my junior year class in high school in 1968-69 – read — and which I read again years later. In Charles Dickens’ novel, a banker named Jarvis Lorry from England goes to visit a man who has been imprisoned for 18 years – in Paris, I think it was: Doctor Minette. And Mr. Lorry is instrumental in getting the doctor released from prison. And the doctor mentions the phrase “Recalled to Life” — “After 18 years . . . recalled to life.” I believe that phrase is the title of one of the chapters in the novel. The movie was “The Silence of the Lambs.”
In my writing to the actress on FB Messenger, I wrote: “Let the lambs be silent no longer.” The actress replied, asking me what I meant by that. I wasn’t sure what I meant. It was only “a play” on the title to the movie. I finally answered her question this way: “Your question finds me as silent as a lamb.”
She didn’t write another word to me; although I wrote much to her – and posted many hymns of people in church singing; and then I deleted all that I had written to her; and then I unfriended her, too.
Ralph McTell Streets of London
Ralph McTell Streets of London – YouTube
Yet Not I But Through Christ In Me (Live) – Selah [Official Video]
Yet Not I But Through Christ In Me (Live) – Selah [Official Video]
Leonard Cohen – Hallelujah (Live In London)
Leonard Cohen – Hallelujah (Live In London)
Leonard Cohen – Anthem
Terry Jacks – Seasons In The Sun
Terry Jacks – Seasons In The Sun
Smokie – Living Next Door to Alice (Official Video) (VOD)
Smokie – Living Next Door to Alice (Official Video) (VOD) – YouTube
Agnus Dei by michael w. smith.wmv/video transition editing with lyrics on que created by keyedlife
Agnus Dei by michael w. smith.wmv/video transition editing with lyrics on que created by keyedlife
Lenny LeBlanc – Above All ♪ Lirik Lagu Kristen
Lenny LeBlanc – Above All ♪ Lirik Lagu Kristen – YouTube
God’s Way Of Salvation (John 3:16)
Gospel Tract – God’s Way of Salvation (John 3:16) – Moments With The Book
Believing in your self rather than believing in “Christ in you the hope of glory” is like an acorn that chooses to remain only what it is: a hard-shelled seed that refuses to believe that it may become so much more – by breaking open and letting his Creator have His Way with him.
And there are 27 books in The New Testament
And verse 27 of Chapter One in
The Letter of Paul to the Colossians
Says:
“To them God chose to make known how great among the Gentiles are the riches of the glory of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.” -Colossians 1: 27. ESV Study Bible.
Colossians 1-4
Colossians 1-4 ESV – Greeting – Paul, an apostle of Christ – Bible Gateway
So . . .
What do you choose to be ?
And what do you choose to become ?
Only an acorn ?
Or
a born-again Christian
?
Will you only let nature have its way with you ?
Or
Will you let True God have His Way with you ?
“Jesus said to him, ‘I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.’” -John 14: 6. ESV Study Bible.
John 14-17
John 14-17 ESV – I Am the Way, and the Truth, and the – Bible Gateway
Will Michelle Come Out of Her Shell ?
And Felicia ?
And Alicia ?
And Jason ?
And his brothers and his sisters ?
And his cousins ?
And all our Uncles and Aunts ?
And all our neighbors ?
And all our friends ?
And all our enemies, too ?
And all the people of all the nations on True God’s Earth . . .
What do we choose to be and become ?
1 John 2: 15-17
“Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the world. And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.”
1 John 1-5
1 John 1-5 ESV – The Word of Life – That which was from – Bible Gateway
“From the fig tree learn its lesson: as soon as its branch becomes tender and puts out its leaves, you know that summer is near. So also, when you see all these things, you know that he is near, at the very gates. Truly, I say to you, this generation will not pass away until all these things take place. Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will not pass away.” -Jesus. [Matthew 24: 32-35 ESV Study Bible].
Matthew 24
Matthew 24 ESV – Jesus Foretells Destruction of the – Bible Gateway
“Afterward he appeared to the eleven themselves as they were reclining at table, and he rebuked them for their unbelief and hardness of heart, because they had not believed those who saw him after he had risen. And he said to them, ‘Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation. Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned.’” -Jesus. [Mark 16: 14-16. ESV Study Bible].
Mark 16
Mark 16 ESV – The Resurrection – When the Sabbath was – Bible Gateway
“. . . my words will not pass away.” -Jesus.
The Rapture
Mark's Imaginings 