“If you can”? said Jesus. “Everything is possible for him who believes.” -Mark 9:23 NIV Study Bible.

Wednesday, August 12th, 2020. 8:00 AM.


Do you agree that “anything is possible”?

The reason I ask you that question is because I have an understanding about why it is that I’m in a predicament about someone. She’s apparently not interested in me; but, I’m interested in her. And I wonder sometimes, why I’m in this predicament over her. Why would I want to hear from someone who doesn’t want to talk to me? Why do I write to someone who doesn’t write back to me? Yesterday, we were together in the Spirit for about an hour. It was so lovely to be in conversation with her in my heart.

An explanation for this perplexing situation occurred to me this evening. It’s only a possibility. I don’t know if it’s the truth. Anything is possible. I don’t know. I understand that it is very easy for people reading my explanation to just jump to the conclusion that I need professional help. It’s so easy for people to just try to pass a problem along to others. Maybe, professional help really is not the solution.

So, anyway, this is my attempt to understand why I think of this person; why I imagine it would be such a good thing to enjoy her friendship. What if she is also in need of someone? What if her heart is drawing my heart? What if she needs me, but doesn’t recognize this fact? Here is an explanation for why I think so. I wrote to her a few months ago. And a few weeks later she called me. And we talked on the phone for 15 minutes. And the conversation went fine. And a few hours later, she texted me and let me know that it was nice to have spoken with me; and that I was welcome to call her once in a while if I felt like talking. And I texted a reply to her letting her know with enthusiasm how I felt about her. But, then, she texted back to me with words that revealed a very different attitude she had about me. In pondering this, I thought of “Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.” Friendly and then unfriendly. I find that I still want to be friends with her; but, I can’t call her under the current circumstance. I need to hear from Dr. Jekyll. She told me to get “professional help.” Well, maybe her Dr. Jekyll is just the help I need. And, maybe, if her Dr. Jekyll would help me . . . maybe, I could help her Mr. Hyde. Maybe those two “guys” just need to be knit together by love and understanding and conversation and writing and listening and prayer and inner healing. Maybe this is a spiritual love story. If only she wasn’t afraid . . . if only she would give me a chance to get acquainted with her Dr. Jekyll and her Mr. Hyde.  

Or, perhaps the solution is for the Spirit of the Lord to command that the spirit of Mr. Hyde come out of her and never enter her again.

Mark 9

Robin Mark – Days of Elijah (Official Lyric Video)

[Eileen has a daughter named Mary]

Mary Did You Know by Clay Aiken

This Kingdom | Hillsong (Featuring Darlene Zschech)

you raise me up – josh groban with lyrics

You Raise me Up

Wednesday, August 12, 2020. 4:27 AM

I was born on a Wed-nes-day in November [Lov-ember]

Eileen called me on May 27th, 2020. It was a Wed-nes-day.

There is a love song called “The Twelfth of Never”

There is a story about two young people who met for the first time on June twelfth. And a song was playing on her radio as she ascended the creaky old bare wooden staircase of a branch library in Woonsocket, Rhode Island.

“The Spiritual Staircase — Chapters One and Two”


“in need of someone” – a phrase in a song by Neil Diamond

[Eileen has a younger sister named Carolyn. I met her in 1974. She is 14 years younger than Eileen. She was only 7 years old in 1974, “the summer of ’74.” I still remember her soft-spoken voice.  Eileen was 21 and I was 22].

About being 22. There is a phrase in a Simon and Garfunkel song about being 22. “I’m 22 now but I won’t be for long.” Leaves That Are Green – Simon & Garfunkel (lyrics)

The following music video is not the one I intended. I intended “Leaves That Are Green.” I listened to it, though; and I like it; so, I’m letting it be. Life often happens in ways we did not intend. God’s Will be done; not mine.

Shirley Bassey & Neil Diamond – Play Me / Diamond – Sweet Caroline / Longfellow Serenade (1974 TV)


This story and love songs will go on and on and on . . .

Love stories never end

Because real love/true love never dies . . . because “God is Love” and “God is Light” and “God is Spirit.” And the Son of God Jesus Christ is eternal life.

1 Corinthians 13:8-13.

The name Eileen means light.

“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

“And God said, ‘Let there be light,’ and there was light. God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness. God called the light ‘day,’ and the darkness he called ‘night.’ And there was evening, and there was morning – the first day.” -Genesis 1:1-5. NIV Study Bible.

Eileen, do you agree . . . with God’s Word?

Eileen’s dad’s name is John.

And it is written in the Bible, in the gospel book named John:

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning.

“Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.” -John 1:1-5. NIV.

One of the greatest Christian hymns was written by a man named John.

Amazing Grace

Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace) [Official Lyric Video] – Hillsong Worship

Way Maker – Bethel Music (Lyrics)

I Stand Amazed – Chris Tomlin [with lyrics]

Someone may say, “Well, if you believe in the Lord God, why are you writing to and about Eileen?”

Could it be that the Lord God is doing all this?

God Moves In A Mysterious Way – Lori Sealy

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