“I Don’t Care!”

Tuesday, April 25th, 2023. The 115th day of this year. 7:00 AM.

“I Don’t Care!”

. . .  she often said.

Chapter One

Dolores often fended off uncomfortable thoughts by exclaiming to herself, “I don’t care!”

And so it came about that, even in her conversations with friends and family and anyone else, that she would say those words in reply – when anyone tried to contribute their own differing view about anything that Dolores said. And it made Dolores feel self-confident by way of her assertiveness – putting an abrupt end to any opposing views. She felt confident in herself. No one could stop her. True God – Who sees all things and everyone – Who even knows our thoughts and imaginings, loved Dolores – and proposed in His heart to save Dolores from her overly-self-confident self.

“There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death.” -Proverbs 14:12 ESV.

“One who is wise is cautious and turns away from evil, but a fool is reckless and careless.” -Proverbs 14:16 ESV Study Bible.

Dolores began entertaining in her heart and imagination, going on a journey – far away from where she lived. She often read novels that had a journey motif. She knew she liked the idea of being on a journey; so, she began wondering, “Where shall I go on my journey — in real life?” She lived in southern New England and decided to journey to Maine – she’d still be in New England – but, in a very different climate — up there in northern Maine. She began telling her friends and family and neighbors about her intentions to travel North. Some of them just listened and said nothing; some wanted to mention to her that life in northern Maine would be much different than it is in southern New England – it would be much colder in winter – and there would be much more snow – and in Springtime there would be many May flies in the air – and the water at the beach is much colder – even in Summertime. Dolores just confidently replied to them all, “I don’t care!”

By the way, the name Dolores means “sorrowful,” and Dolores didn’t even know the meaning of her own name. And it didn’t matter – because if anyone had told her – she would have matter-of-factly replied, “I don’t care!”

Someone who was fond of Dolores – and was also fond of the Scriptures – read a verse to her in the Bible: “There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death.” -Proverbs 14:12 ESV Study Bible. Dolores blithely replied, “I don’t care!” And her self-confidence grew greatly after she said this – for she realized she wasn’t even afraid of God Almighty and the Scriptures inspired by His Holy Spirit. Another friend of hers who was fond of psychology and noticed how often Dolores exclaimed, “I don’t care!” asked Dolores if she knew what the word apathy means. Dolores was just about to say to him, “I don’t care what it means!” . . . but she stopped herself – because she didn’t really know what that word meant. So, she honestly admitted, “No, I don’t. What does it mean?” He told her, “It means not caring. And it is a spiritual condition of the heart. Again, Dolores was about to reply, “I don’t care!” but she didn’t. Dolores was just beginning to have a care . . . like a seed beginning to grow in her formerly cool, calm and collected heart of supreme self-confidence – trusting only in herself.

MaCoys – Hang on sloopy.mpg

MaCoys – Hang on sloopy.mpg – YouTube

Sometimes, Dolores remembered a favorite line from one of the classic movies of all time: “Gone with the Wind” — Rhet Butler saying, “Frankly my dear . . . I don’t give a damn.” She liked his attitude. And so, with that same attitude, she began her journey to Maine – to live in a different climate – where it would be cooler than southern New England – and different in many ways from where she’d lived all her life, so far. And she also enjoyed remembering another famous line – this one from television – from Star Trek. The introduction spoke of “going where no man has gone before.” Well, Dolores wanted to go where she had never gone before – to seek out new life – and a new frontier – for herself. She also liked many of the sayings of Henry David Thoreau, the writer from Concord, Massachusetts in the 19th century.

I went to the woods, Henry David Thoreau – YouTube

His thoughts make me cry . . .

I went to the woods – YouTube

Reflect On Henry David Thoreau’s Vision Of Walden Pond | The Daily 360 | The New York Times – YouTube

Nature: Walden Pond – YouTube

Henry David Thoreau Quotes – BrainyQuote

Dolores actually liked lots of things – she just liked to pretend she didn’t care. She liked that laissez-faire attitude – that devil-may-care way of casually living the easy life – and not giving a damn.  And she found the world kind of crazy anyway – so why not join the crowd? For example: the funny things in language – like going Downtown when she actually lived in a city – not a town – in southern New England – but people still spoke of going Downtown whenever they went shopping on Main Street – but that was in the good old days of the ‘50s and ‘60s. By the ‘70s and 80s the businesses that had been Downtown on Main Street were mostly moving to the East side of Woonsocket – the outskirts of town – I mean city. And now she was wondering why it was — of Maine — that people spoke of going Down East to get there — when they were actually going Up North to get to Maine. And so, Dolores was getting more serious as she matured in her thinking. She was becoming less careless and more considerate in her thought-life. And things were also beginning to stir in her heart, too. She was beginning to have feelings like she never had before. She was getting born again before she even heard of such a thing. True God was working in her heart – “Not by might nor by power but by my Spirit, says the Lord of hosts.” –Zechariah.

“And I said to the angel who talked with me, ‘What are these, my lord?’ Then the angel who talked with me answered and said to me, ‘Do you not know what these are?’ I said, ‘No, my lord.’ Then he said to me, ‘This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the LORD of hosts. Who are you, O great mountain? Before Zerubbabel you shall become a plain. And he shall bring forward the top stone amid shouts of ‘Grace, grace to it!’” -Zechariah 4:4-7 ESV Study Bible.

John 3-6

John 3-6 ESV – You Must Be Born Again – Now there was – Bible Gateway

“For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age, waiting for our blessed hope, the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ, who gave himself for us to redeem us from all lawlessness and to purify for himself a people for his own possession who are zealous for good works.

“Declare these things; exhort and rebuke with all authority. Let no one disregard you.” -Titus 2:11-15 ESV Study Bible.

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Babylon the Great & The Caliph Antichrist – Armageddon News – YouTube


Gospel Tract – The Rapture – Moments With The Book (mwtb.org)


Tract For Believers – What is Meant by the Rapture? – Moments With The Book (mwtb.org)


Gospel Tract – God’s Way of Salvation (John 3:16) – Moments With The Book (mwtb.org)

You’re the Lion of Judah – Robin Mark

You’re the Lion of Judah – Robin Mark – YouTube

2 Corinthians 4

2 Corinthians 4 ESV – The Light of the Gospel – Therefore, – Bible Gateway

Revival In Belfast Robin Mark

Revival In Belfast Robin Mark – YouTube

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