“An Honest Conversation”

Saturday, February 6th, 2021. 4:07 PM.

[the anniversary of the Great Blizzard of 1978 — 55 inches of snow fell in Woonsocket, Rhode Island. And we were all out of work for about a week– and during that week, I began writing to an old friend named Andree; and she told me she had become a born again Christian. And a correspondence by letters thus began that culminated in my becoming a born again Christian, too — in early April 1978 while visiting Andree at her seminary in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. And, later, I got baptised at Blackstone Valley Baptist Church in Woonsocket, RI on May 14th, 1978. Only years later did I realize that May 14th is the anniversary of the founding of The State of Israel in 1948. And, at that time, the church was located at the corner of Blackstone Street and Spring Street in Woonsocket. And Glen Road where Eileen had lived her childhood came right down a hill to Spring Street near that corner where the church was located. And the white house where she lived was 116 Glen Road. And Shakespeare’s Sonnet 116 has the same number.]

Sonnet 116: Let me not to the marriage of true minds 

Sonnet 116: Let me not to the marriage of true… | Poetry Foundation

An Honest Conversation

Between Eileen and Mark

I texted Eileen this morning at 7:42 AM.

It was the first time since late November

Afterwards, I was imagining a conversation between us —

It went like this:

Mark: “Eileen, you haven’t texted or called or emailed or written to me in ages. What is the matter?”

Eileen: “I just can’t, Mark.”

Mark: “Why not, Eileen?”

Eileen: “I just cannot say or write a word to you.”

Mark: “What is the reason for your inability to communicate with me, Eileen?”

Eileen: “I can’t be truthful with you, Mark. It just feels like I’d be entering a very cold shower, naked. I just can’t do that. My skin is too sensitive. I could not bare it – I mean bear it.”

Mark: “You need Jesus, Eileen.”

Eileen: “What does Jesus have to do with being honest with you, Mark?”

Mark: “Jesus is the Way and the Life and the Truth. He can enable you to be honest, authentic, genuine; so that you can communicate with me, honestly.”

Eileen: “How do I get Jesus’ help with this?”

Mark: “Believe on Him.”

Eileen: “How can I believe on Jesus?”

Mark: “Believe in the gospel of Jesus Christ.”

Eileen: “How can I believe in the gospel of Jesus Christ?”

Mark: “Listen to it. Read it. You told me you like to read. Believe the words that are written there. Believe it is the truth from God, the true God.”

Eileen: “What about you, Mark, showing me that you can be honest? Maybe if I see your honesty it would show me the reality of what you’re suggesting that I do. Remember that saying: ‘Lead by example.’? How about leading me into honesty, yourself – by being honest with me?”

Mark: “I’m willing to give it a try. What can I be honest with you about?”

Eileen: “Why don’t you do what I told you, Mark, and forget about me?”

Mark: “Because, Eileen, you are so dear to me that I just can’t forget you. You are in my heart – and so, thoughts of you come into my mind from my heart – and memories of us also come into my consciousness.”

Eileen: “What do you want with me, anyway?”

Mark: “It would be nice to be in conversation with you.”

Eileen: “How can you be so sure it would be nice? What if I started criticizing you; and told you what you should be doing. I mean, what if I was difficult to get along with? What if I disagreed with everything you said?”

Mark: “Well, in that case, I guess I would just have to appreciate that you were talking to me, at least.”

Eileen: “Mark, do you actually believe that you could enjoy listening to me speaking to you like that?”

Mark: “Well, maybe I could do it in hope that you are only testing me – and that if I just endure it you might feel some good feeling in your heart that I was willing to suffer it – and then your heart might soften toward me — some happiness might come bubbling up like a delightful fountain of spring water.

Vinesong – Peace Like a River (Original Version w/ Lyrics) – LIVE

Vinesong – Peace Like a River (Original Version w/ Lyrics) – LIVE – YouTube

Eileen: “Are you sure you could take it, Mark?”

Mark: “I really don’t know.”

Eileen: “Then why are you offering to even try?”

Mark: “I guess, I just want to hear from you, Eileen.”

Eileen: “What would you like to hear from me, Mark?”

Mark: “The sound of your voice, Eileen.”

Eileen: “You really like the sound of my voice, Mark?”

Mark: “Yes.”

Eileen: “What is so special about the sound of my voice?”

Mark: “It is Eileen’s voice.”

Eileen: “And what is so special to you about, Eileen’s Voice?”

Mark: “I miss hearing it.”

Eileen: “Why?”

Mark: “I miss her.”

Eileen: “Why do you miss her?”

Mark: “She was in my class at St. Charles School for 5 years. We sort of grew up together during those years – from 9 or 10 year-old 4th-graders to 13-year-old young teenagers in 8th grade when we graduated in June 1966. And we dated for 3-and-a-half months during the “Summer of ‘74” when we were 21 and 22 years old. She was so beautiful at 21. It was a wonderful romance. And now, at 69, and living all by myself and not feeling well – well, my heart just can’t help but harken back to those old days of our youth. Maybe I’m just not whole without her.”

Vinesong – Let Your Living Water Flow/Thank You Lord (Original Version w/ Lyrics)

Vinesong – Let Your Living Water Flow/Thank You Lord (Original Version w/ Lyrics) – YouTube

Vinesong – Holy Spirit Move Me Now (Lyric Video)

Vinesong – Holy Spirit Move Me Now (Lyric Video) – YouTube

John 4

“There came a woman of Samaria to draw water. Jesus said to her, “Give Me a drink.” -John 4:7. New American Standard Bible.

John 4 NASB1995 – Jesus Goes to Galilee – Therefore when – Bible Gateway

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